Waning: Lengthy post  *nervous chuckle*

Being a man of logic sure does have its perks. (Man in background: “Ain’t that the truth!”) One who can commit to logic like it’s second nature is a rare one, apparently. Or first nature? I dunno. I never really thought about it like that, but it would explain quite a few things that always puzzled me. Mental acuity though isn’t everything, is it? I think everything has a balance, doesn’t it? The mind is quite the popular one, isn’t it? Cause the opposite of the mind is the heart, which isn’t what we’re talking about. We’re talking about the mind’s other best friend, something I’ve never really found the right for. But it’s basically physical fitness. And no, that doesn’t seem quite right.

Anyone who reads this blog knows that I am a real-life curious cat. I may not be the biggest detective geek, or the smartest kid in the classroom, but that’s the thing about curiosity, isn’t it? You don’t really have to be, it’s more of a…. near-lust desire to experience anything & everything, ya’know? And BEING a curious cat, puzzles, and even more so, the inner mechanics of something, always strikes a chord in me. Making the more complex of stuffs the most desirable and tasty thing in my eyes alone, not to mention based purely on fact. Simplicity is, for lack of a better word, a curious thing too when it wants to be, so that’s up there too, and not on the bottom. But complexity is such a mesmerizing concept.

The mind is the most complex, and yet, simple thing on this planet… possibly. Probably though. Which is most likely the reason why I am so drawn to it, why it peaks my interest so thoroughly. But I forget! Mental acuity has a brother, yang. Although, in this case, I would think “mind” is yang, and physical fitness would be–see?! Doesn’t fit, nope. But yeah, physical fitness would be Yin. After all, martial arts itself was not invented to hurt others, but to offer peace to the mind. Individually, they are powerful, but together, they are a force not to be reckoned with.

Physical fitness…. What can I say about physical fitness? Well, I can tell you one thing, it’s something that I have suppressed for a long time, and my affinity for it. So, not so much the act itself, though that does follow, but the exact same affinity I have for mental acuity, I have for physical fitness. As torturous as strengthening the mind is, at least I could go as far as the mind could think and not get tired so fast. So, in a way, it was just easier.

But now, I have hit a wall. Control has gotten harder, and my current environment only makes it more difficult. If I don’t handle this now, it’ll only be a problem for me later. In layman’s terms, the balance is off. The mind is outweighing the body. The physical attribute needs to put his effort in too. It can’t just be lazy, the mind will not carry all the weight. That–that’s gotta stop. That’s gotta stop. But I guess this is what I’ve been working up to, so… I think it’s time I learn how to be bullet-proof…. that’s a metaphor, and a PoPS reference, try to keep up. But maybe I shouldn’t talk. After all, this title and theme of this post is “My Endurance Affinity,” and we’ve hardly gotten into that, sort of.

But I forget just how easily my heart-rate goes up, figuratively speaking, when I endure physical exertion. Like, when I run, I suddenly feel some type of… high gear. That’s probably more bark than bite on an average Joe. But with me, that can take me quite a ways. So, when I get this way, I kick it up a notch, (or two, depending on how my body’s doing that day) and when I do that… sometimes it feels like I’m flying. God forbid that I know how fast I am ACTUALLY going ūüėČ But I get just as much of a high from that as I do from psycho-analyzing somebody, or reading a situation from a psychological point-of-view.

This is gonna take some thinking about. Same affinity, but as they’re are traps of the mind, they’re are traps of the body as well. And I don’t know the physical attribute anywhere NEAR as well as I do the mental attribute. So, I don’t want to do it in a way where my body will give out and break down on me when I’m older. No over doing it, that’s for sure. Meaning, I need to know when to stop “drinking” when I’m at my limit lol. Which shouldn’t be too hard, in theory. But with my affinity, I should keep a weather eye out, just in case.

You know that whirring sound you hear when tv shows feature people who’s had too much caffeine, or sugar, or some experimental something-or-other? Or just when a giant machine is powering up? Yeah, that’s something like the feeling I get when I get excited. Hands start shaking, sometimes my legs. But most of the time, my legs are just whispering to me *creepy voice “Doooo it!!!….. DO iiiit!!!!” Jaykay. Ell-oh-ell. em-oh, moving on. Just had to get that off my chest.

Soooooo…. I can’t believe I forgot—well, actually I can lol. But it’s still unbelievable that I forgo–wha–hmmm…. Yeeeeah, I guess I have a soft spot for knowledge and wisdom, but the physical attribute will be glorious. Glorious, I say. But what does this mean? More activity, for sure. But what kind? Not saying dancing will open up any time soon, but maybe in the future. Sports is an obvious option…. hm. Cooking is another, of course, but I’m talking big cooking. Lot of preparation, and focus. And then there’s the plain direct option; Exercise.

This will be a challenge. Though I do admit to breeze through a lot of things in the world of my own psyche torture maze, like a boss. But I have reached my peak, and it was no easy task. And now that I have reached my peak, I can go no further until I catch my physical fitness up, for it is directly linked to my mind. In fact,¬† the mental attribute is like…. 80% mental, and 20% physical, and vice-versa with physical fitness. Simply put, it’s like walking. The mind is the left leg, and physical fitness is the right, and you can’t move the left leg any further if the right leg won’t move. So, even though I’ll be building character, and even more affinity for life, it will be great to taste the deliciousness of the fruit that shows you just how far the body can go, if nurtured and trained, just like the mind.

Seems like most people have it the other way around, so just for the record, for those people, you gotta work out your brain, not just in knowledge, but in wisdom as well….. duh. If it makes you feel better, if it’s any consolation, even though that part came somewhat easy for me, at least physical fitness will throw me around like a rag doll lol. Beat me like an old blanket xD. That’ll be fun -_-

This will require, and more importantly, take willpower, and focus. Concentrated focus. I say that cause my focus is fine, but my concentrated focus needs a LOT of work. So does my willpower. Because most of the time, it’s not willpower that keeps me going, it’s curiosity, a strong conviction, and/or stubbornness.

All right people, this monkey is signing off. Take it easy.
Bye-bye now.


The title really has nothing to do with what we’re talking about at all. lol.

Hi, people! What’re we talking about today? Not witches, not people named “Sam,” and¬†not lunch options. I wanna talk about code, more specifically, I wanna talk about the code of man. Not “Guy Code,” but–well, I believe that everyone should live by a code, espcially men, ’cause women generally don’t need one, they just know things. I was reading a manga just the other day, and one of the characters said that it was actually rare to find someone who can live by their code faithfully. And I was like, “whaaaat?!” This doesn’t surprise me, but I was still hoping it was wrong.

But then I thought about the internet, and how there’s that age old excuse “Get over it, it’s the internet.” I wasn’t aware you could treat anyone with any less respect than inside the internet, or rather, you would want to, or if it made a difference if you were on the internet. I mean, really? No respect these days, no respect. You can blame life, you can blame the parents, you can blame the peanut butter stains themselves, but I guess there’s not much you can do about i–Wait! I just had a revelation!

Maybe, if you’re one of thooossse people, then you can just stop ūüėÄ Make the effort to not be a laz–just don’t spend too much on the internet lol. Have some self-respect, man! I¬†mean, do you HAVE to act like an a-hole? Is¬†it THAT hard to be nice? And what’s wrong with being nice anyways?¬†I mean, I don’t understand what possible reason people have for acting like the dirt they walk on, but as for doing the right thing, and just plain treating people like human beings….. need there be a reason?

Well, it’s gonna be a short one this time. Hopefully, I can start writing again, because I definitely want to. Maybe even do some story junk, yeah? So, I–ohh! Before I forget, Platoon of Power Squadron. Jake? Creator of PoPS, if you’re reading this, BOO YA! XP. Kind freaked out about Jonas’ badassery, so I’m gonna have to go with “part 2” as my fave, but it was great! And on a related note, I don’t care what you say, man, I like ep 1 lol. Despite the difference in ‘feel.’ As in, the tone of the show was definitely different in the first episode, for sure. Some in the second episode, but the tone was definitely established by the 3rd ep. That’s just my opinion, of course. Keep up the great work, PoPS production! And, Jake? I’ll see you in a week. (Update)

Bye-bye now.

p.s. Yeah, that’s right! Don’t lie to Sebastian, wee-otch! ;P

Some people think you need a child’s heart to hear the melody of color, and no doubt a child is probably quite capable. But the funny thing about a child is that in youth we learn, in age we understand. We understand, we know, we…. can appreciate the things in our lives, fully. Humans are notorious for taking things for granted, but that doesn’t mean we can’t still appreciate.


For as long as I can remember (no, really), I’ve seen the world in a…. different kind of light. I wish it was normal, and despite that it’s normal to ME, I don’t actually believe it IS normal lol. Like, a thick fog is not ever just a thick fog. a fan spinning round and round isn’t just spinning… round, and round. A slug on a pathway is not just a slug on a–nothing is ever really just what it seems in my head. It might not even be related at all! rofl. It’s where my joy for life comes from, and I always see beauty in it, even the dark stuff lol (not a good idea btw.)

But the fact that it isn’t normal…. I think that’s really sad! lol. I mean, God forbid 7 billion Saru’s running around this giant blueberry. But still, ya’know? It’s not just about enjoying life, but really seeing it. Having a moment be real, touching things you don’t actually feel. Yeah lol. The world is still sleeping while I keep on dreaming. Kind of sounds sorrowful, if you think about it I mean.

I just want to be able to use this ability. I forget that I have the honor of seeing life in this light myself. It’s kind of like…. the first day it really feels like spring. Man, do I remember what that was like for me as a kid lol. Crisp air, the whole neighborhood shining bright, and me and my bike. Back then though, I could only ride around the neighborhood, not into town lol. But you know, seeing it is hearing it, and vice-versa. Smelling it, tasting it. And the infamous touch. Of course, if you mention “touch” in this world, even a decent lady will think of something dirty lol. Now, you might really understand why I said the world is sleeping xD.

But how do I use this ability? Well, it’s not really an ability, actually….. per se xP. At the beginning of this post, I said a child’s heart is plenty capable. I think another way to put it is that a child’s heart can put out energy, whereas the adult can harness that energy. And at the same time, the heart can grow stronger, stronger than you ever expected out of yourself. A wise man once said that you must imagine yourself stronger than you ever thought possible, because that’s how strong you’ll become…. or something like that xD. But I believe it to be true. I’m not saying be a superman, or exceed the limits given to you. I’m saying….. expect to increase your output. It’s something that you can’t really understand at first, but once you up your game, it gets easier to see outside your limits, and find a way to reach that level.

Like, you know how parents say that you can become anything you set your minds to? (Such a cliche nowadays lol) Well, I truly believe that. A lot of people aren’t strong enough to even think to believe it, but it’s true. For the most part xD. Everyone’s capable of great good, and great evil, eh? And to me, you can’t get either of those with a little hard work….. that’s an understatement. It takes a LOT of work ūüėČ A lot, lot, lot, lot! >;D

It all just starts with one simple question…. what’s my next obstacle? And maybe you’ll want to ask this too: Is that a delay, or just part of the journey? Giving into life’s cheap temporary highs doesn’t seem all that satisfying to me. You see work? I see a ride that keeps on going, and uhhh, oh yeah! I’m gonna ride it for as long as I can!! Maybe I’ve been blessed with some pretty sweet, state-of-the-art tools, yeah? But it wasn’t eas–it STILL isn’t lol. What am I talking about? “Wasn’t” xD. Stupid. Past tense, get out of here! No one wants you! Internal pain is consistent, but it’s highly overrated though. I mean, really. I mean, really. Physical pain? It’s a bit more demanding, and I’d find that to be hell, but again, highly overrated.

Well, whatever. I think I made some good points here, don’t you think? I’m going now cause it’s 5:30 am, and I still need some sleep….. like I’m gonna get it lol.

Bye-bye now.

Did I ever explain what the secret poject was about? Maybe, but let’s have a refresh. What do you say, hmmmmmmmm?

So, I spent last night, Sunday night actually, looking for ¬†how-to’s on anything relating to trading card games, or tcg’s. About them, making them, all that jazz. I thought about doing this nearly a decade ago (WOW!)–Well, not THAT long ago…. kinda. It was in early puberty, maybe earlier. But I was in way over my head at the time, and even then–whoa :o. All the same reasons I was doing it then are pretty much the same now, only more so. Ya see, back then, all I wanted to do was make a card game where I could just plain make cool cards and play it with… well, I didn’t have a whole lot of friends, possibly none at the time lol… But uhh, I also, as a Christian, didn’t feel that playing a game like Yu-Gi-Oh! was considered “okay.”

Not bashing the game really, nor the show for that matter. The fact that they were good forms of entertainment, drawing, captivating, and all around enjoyable are the reasons why a kid likes a show, why people like shows. And for a kid like me, that’s just something that’s so magnetic to your psyche, it’s freaky awesome xP. But to put it plain and simple, I didn’t like that there were monsters, I didn’t like that there were demons, all that satonic crap. And it’s not even about believing it, it’s about indulging it. Though, at the same time, I’m also kind of annoyed at the fact that the fantasy genre has taken over the TCG market. Yu-Gi-Oh!, Magic: The Gathering, Pokemon, Bakugan, redak–something or other lol. It makes plenty of sense, and that’s cool for them. Even back then though, I genuinely wanted was to make a card game that someone didn’t have to feel weird about liking in any way.

In an interview I had with myself in my head, where the TCG I produced with a friend became ultra popular, I talked about how people, parents essentially, want to feel good about giving their kids suitable content to interact with, but that sounds really lame to be completely honest with you all lol. Kind of sounds like they’re baby-proofing everything you want to mess with xD. I just want to provide the option. I’m not talking about some revolutionary idea, but a simple card game. Not a “simple” card game, simple enough. We ARE talking about a strategy game here. Of course, I’m only talking about producing this card game for myself, friends and family. Not to sell on the market. Duh, guys. But hey, what’s wrong with that? One can argue “Well, what’re wrong with it, huh?” At which point, I would respond with “It’s not really about what’s wrong with it, but is it really necessary?” You don’t really think about those sort of things. I know we’re talking about a game, and the last thing I want to do is make some sort of case about this, but you see so much ridiculously over-the-top violence in video games, sexually exciting characters, and disturbing creatures in entertainment. Isn’t there a way to combine “edge” with something a little less….. well, THAT? lol. Like I said, don’t want to make a big thing out of this, all I’m saying is it seems like to ME that people feel the need to add all this type of content when there really is no reason to. Simple as that.

Got off track here, and I forgot about one key piece of information here. I’m probably not going to make it until… who knows how long. And one of THE BIGGEST reasons why I want to do this is because I love playing Yu-Gi-Oh! the trading card game lol. It’s really fun, and it’s good times with my brother. And strategy games are always MY domain >;D. So, basically, I’m gonna recreate Yu-Gi-Oh! Not to make money off of, cause that would be called Grand Theft Card-oh, and is frowned upon in some societies. Like I said, only for family (mainly just my brother and sister cause my mom would be lost in that game xD), and any friend who’s bored and willing. That’s what he said.

Speaking of which, if you say “That’s what HE said,” does it make it a homo joke? I wouldn’t think so, but I guess, if you think about it THAT way. I mean, if someone says “Another thing girls say is that guys don’t spend enough time with them. But when you think about it, it goes BOTH ways,” I would assume heterosexual, not homosexual. But see what I did there? xD Equality! (higaholic).

I’m STILL stuck on what I should replace the monsters in YGO with. Hmmm. Originally, I was thinking a bestial theme. That’s not only primal, but educational, and we all know children LOVE educational entertainment. Duh, guys. Right?…. guys? Duh. Duh, guys. It’s all about¬†subtlety¬† Of course, it seems as though giving it a sci-fi coating may just do the trick. Soooooo, mechanical ¬†beasts of some sort? The important thing here is to think “teenager-adult” when I am creating this. Cause even though I’m only putting YGO through reincarnation, and I’m not making it for the world, if it has a child feel to it, I’m gonna wanna puke myself lol. I want it to have EDGE. And I do have a standard I must meet, cause this is a game I’M gonna not only have to like, but like enough to create more and more of.

Last thing I want here is pressure though. Pressure to play a game? How sick is that?! Parents who put pressure on their kids to play sports or smother their creative minds, I only have this to say: “SSSSSssssssTOP IT!” ¬†This is about fun, and ohhhhh, am I gonna have fun >;P. I actually already got some tips on making physical prototypes, but I think this is gonna run in a similar pace to Brothers. I’m gonna work on it, then stop, then work, then stop, you know? As much as I love a little pressure-motivation, I like that these are projects that I can just walk away from and know I’m come back to, that’s a good feeling for me. I’m always kind of worried that I’m gonna just forget about something I’m working on, (with good reason too) mostly with stories and junk, but same can go for projects like these. Brothers is a big project, and (let’s call it…, uhhh) Mechanical Prime is a minor project, so I think it’s okay now…… Kinda like that name. “Mechanical Prime.” Hm….. Nah, it reminds me a bit too much of Transformers ;P. Just kidding, it’ll be an option…. maybe.

I’ll talk more about this in another post, this one is too long lol. But this project is of great excitement for me, much like Brothers. Different, but in the same league…. surprisingly xD. Not sure what that means lol.

Bye-bye now.

I’m avoiding it RIGHT NOW. As we speak, avoidingness is going down. What am I avoiding you ask? You weren’t asking, but you are reading so MREH! X). I am clearly capable of making vlogs right now, with the exception of questionable static-y audio, and yet, I am not doing it. Now, why is that? Ah, I’m gonna cut crap lol. I’m not falling into this hole, no¬†sirree! I’m just gonna make a friggin’ video. I think I’ll do a tag, I said I would do one actually, a week or so ago….. Yeah, I’m gonna do that.

Secret Place Tag, here I come!!!!!!!!

Bye-bye now.

So, I was talking to a friend the other night, and I met her on the internet a year ago. We were talking and stuff, never met her in person before, and I started to think how it would all go down, meeting her. Would I surprise her, or would it be pre-planned? Being the way that I am, liking surprises and all, that opened up a much…. wider branch of fun ways to approach the question xD. The first thing that pops into my head is to wait for a anime convention she’s going to, dress up like Kaito Kid (w/ the mask) and either pop up somewhere, or make some sort of grand entrance…. MUAH HAHAHAHA!!! XD.

Of course, if it was a surprise, I’d have to have her address. Couldn’t I just ask for it? Maybe. But I would then lose the element I am using, wouldn’t I? Yes. Yes, I would. The element of surprise is what makes all this so fun! I can’t afford to lose it. Nope. So, that means I must track her down, like a BOSS! ;p. But I’m OBVIOUSLY not going to reveal my master plan that I haven’t thought of yet, she reads this blog, dummies. Obvo.

Maybe I should track her down through friends, like Skylar (An alias I have given him, duh guys). I could probably triangulate a geographic profile, based on the information I have collected over the past year, the pieces of info I can remember anyhow. Man, that’s gonna be SO much fun. It’ll be like cat and mouse xP.

She knows where I live though, cause she’s a big ole dummy. Why am I offended? I am not, especially when I track her down.¬†No. I won’t track her down, that’s what she did to me. I shall track her down, like a BOSS! ;D. She probably used the internet or whatever. BORING!!!! No imagination whatsoever. If I was offended, it’d be because of the lack of effort and fun. F!!!!!!!!!!!! That’s your grade, Mal! Again, an alias I force upon friends and acquaintances o:) And I annoyed her in process too….. like a BOSS! XD.

But man, if it was pre-planned, that would suck all the fun out of it xD. Like a friggin…. vacuum cleaner. I’d honestly just like to pop up somewhere she’d least expect it. Yup. Maybe work, maybe home. But I might get attacked if I popped up in her room lol. Well, maybe not. I learned the art of calm in chaotic situation from my sister. If you stay at ease, it’ll annoy the heck out of people, but it will take out the option of violence ;). But that does propose an interesting set up. What if I popper up in her room AS Kaito Kid? lol. That’d be FUNNY! xD. That would take some planning…. and EFFORT! >_>. Cause you can’t just dress up as Kid…. no. You gotta bring your A game, so that no insulting goes on towards the character you are cosplaying. A lot of cosplays, you don’t really have to try, but someone as awesome as Kaito Kid? Yes, you must bring honor–HAHA! Honor! Cause there is no honor among thieves ;P. There is, interestingly enough. I mean, Kaito Kid, LupinIII I think, Sly Cooper. Heck, Sly Cooper 3 was named: Honor Among Thieves. And I bet that… anime girl… who’s nameeee….. escapes me, Kaito Jeanne? Some magic girl anime I think, I can’t quite remember, but I bet she has some honor. And it is arguable if the brothers have honor. You know–HEY! I forget! XP

I came up with a name for Brothers…. no I haven’t lol. I’m thinking it should just be called “Brothers.” I mean, really. I mean, really. *clears throat*. Or maybe “Moonlight: Brothers under the Stars.” Eh? Eh?…… Ehhhhhh?! xD. I mostly refer to it as Brothers though. Meh! I’m done with this post.

Bye-bye now.

…… I see :3

So, I was just in my room, at my desk, and my sister comes a knockin’. ¬†She starts telling me about this thing that happened at her work, about how she’s getting along with the new manager or whatever. The new manager, let’s call her Debby, said she heard really good things about my sister from two other employees, let’s call them Angie and Jasper. The thing about Angie though is all my sister has to do is walk past Angie and she says “Ew >_>.” She’s even thrown food at her. A nugget I believe. Or something, I don’t know.

Of course, she is joking, my sister doesn’t take it to heart, but she honestly believes (with some good reason) that Angie hates her. So, when hearing that Jasper and Angie were saying good things about her, she goes “Yeah, Tyler is pretty co–wait, what? Angie had good things to say about me? She hates me.” But Debby said “No, she loves you, what are YOU talking about?” And then, probably in her head, she said “…… I see :3” ¬†As demonstrated by the photo:

I see :3


Sooooo, needless to say, Rain’s gonna give it to her when she sees her next >;D.